The End of the World As We Know It: According to Revelation

This is simply a simple break down study of Revelation I did based solely on Revelation. The reason? I hear so many pastors teach on Revelation and the end days based on what they personally think, or what they have been taught in theological school by other men, or on what they have read in commentaries. And I mean, these are good faithful pastors; good teachers. But the more I read the Scriptures, the more I see that our own pastors are becoming more and more disconnected from the Scriptures and more connected to men’s interpretation of the Scriptures. And so they teach mainly what they have been taught by their teachers, sometimes passing down onto us the common folks inaccuracies, simply because they depend on their or somebody else’s interpretation. So I just want to encourage each one of us to simply read the Scriptures. Yes, we are in the last days and that also means that in our own churches, false ideas and twisting of the truth will be taught (even by our very own good pastors). But we won’t even know this unless we know the Scriptures. One more thing. Keep in mind, that even something as an interpretation even by the greatest of teachers may be adding to or subtracting from the very words of the Bible. We must be very careful when it comes to what the Scriptures actually say. We must not say anything more or less to what the Scriptures say, and with the “gray areas” and more confusing texts, rather than trying to interpret them and trying to make them mean something just for the sake of having an explanation …may be it would be better to just leave them as such and read them as such without forcing an interpretation. I strongly believe that when their time comes, we all will all-of- a- sudden see and understand those passages. Everything in its time.

And now…please enjoy reading my break down, step by step:   According to Revelation, what must happen leading to the end of the world as we know it:

Look! He is returning with the clouds, and every eye will see him, even those who pierced him, and all the tribes on the earth will mourn because of him. This will certainly come to pass! Amen (1:7)

The judgment of the seven churches:

      1. Judgement of the church in Ephesus (2:2-7): “I have this against you: You have departed from your first love! Therefore, remember from what high state you have fallen and repent! Do the deeds you did at the first; if not, I will come to you and remove your lampstand from its place—that is, if you do not repent. But you do have this going for you: You hate what the Nicolaitans practice—practices I also hate. The one who has an ear had better hear what the Spirit says to the churches. To the one who conquers, I will permit him to eat from the tree of life that is in the paradise of God.”
      2. Judgement of the church in Smyrna ( 2:10-11): “I know the distress you are suffering and your poverty (but you are rich). I also know the slander against you by those who call themselves Jews and really are not, but are a synagogue of Satan. 10 Do not be afraid of the things you are about to suffer. The devil is about to have some of you thrown into prison so you may be tested, and you will experience suffering for ten days. Remain faithful even to the point of death, and I will give you the crown that is life itself. 11 The one who has an ear had better hear what the Spirit says to the churches. The one who conquers will in no way be harmed by the second death.”
      3. Judgement of the church in Pergamum (2:14-17): “I have a few things against you: You have some people there who follow the teaching of Balaam, who instructed Balak to put a stumbling block before the people of Israel so they would eat food sacrificed to idols and commit sexual immorality. In the same way, there are also some among you who follow the teaching of the Nicolaitans. Therefore, repent! If not, I will come against you quickly and make war against those people with the sword of my mouth. The one who has an ear had better hear what the Spirit says to the churches. To the one who conquers, I will give him some of the hidden manna, and I will give him a white stone, and on that stone will be written a new name that no one can understand except the one who receives it.”
      4. Judgement of the church in Thyatira (2:20- 29): “I have this against you: You tolerate that woman Jezebel, who calls herself a prophetess, and by her teaching deceives my servants to commit sexual immorality and to eat food sacrificed to idols. I have given her time to repent, but she is not willing to repent of her sexual immorality. Look! I am throwing her onto a bed of violent illness, and those who commit adultery with her into terrible suffering, unless they repent of her deeds. Furthermore, I will strike her followers with a deadly disease, and then all the churches will know that I am the one who searches minds and hearts. I will repay each one of you what your deeds deserve.  But to the rest of you in Thyatira, all who do not hold to this teaching (who have not learned the so-called “deep secrets of Satan”), to you I say: I do not put any additional burden on you. However, hold on to what you have until I come. And to the one who conquers and who continues in my deeds until the end, I will give him authority over the nations —  he will rule them with an iron rod and like clay jars he will break them to pieces, just as I have received the right to rule from my Father—and I will give him the morning star. The one who has an ear had better hear what the Spirit says to the churches.”
      5. Judgement of the church in Sardis (3:2-6): “Wake up then, and strengthen what remains that was about to die, because I have not found your deeds complete in the sight of my God. Therefore, remember what you received and heard, and obey it, and repent. If you do not wake up, I will come like a thief, and you will never know at what hour I will come against you. But you have a few individuals in Sardis who have not stained their clothes, and they will walk with me dressed in white, because they are worthy. The one who conquers will be dressed like them in white clothing, and I will never erase his name from the book of life, but will declare his name before my Father and before his angels. The one who has an ear had better hear what the Spirit says to the churches.”
      6. Judgement of the church in Philadelphia (3:9-13): “I am going to make those people from the synagogue of Satan—who say they are Jews yet are not, but are lying—Look, I will make them come and bow down at your feet and acknowledge that I have loved you. Because you have kept my admonition to endure steadfastly, I will also keep you from the hour of testing that is about to come on the whole world to test those who live on the earth. I am coming soon. Hold on to what you have so that no one can take away your crown. The one who conquers I will make a pillar in the temple of my God, and he will never depart from it. I will write on him the name of my God and the name of the city of my God (the new Jerusalem that comes down out of heaven from my God), and my new name as well. The one who has an ear had better hear what the Spirit says to the churches.”
      7. Judgement of the church in Laodicea (3:19-22): “[..because you are lukewarm, and neither hot nor cold… because you say, “I am rich and have acquired great wealth, and need nothing,” but do not realize that you are wretched, pitiful, poor, blind, and naked]… All those I love, I rebuke and discipline. So be earnest and repent! Listen! I am standing at the door and knocking! If anyone hears my voice and opens the door I will come into his home and share a meal with him, and he with me. I will grant the one who conquers permission to sit with me on my throne, just as I too conquered and sat down with my Father on his throne. The one who has an ear had better hear what the Spirit says to the churches.”                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         After the judgement of the seven churches, the next thing to happen is the opening of the seven seals:                                                                                                         “…come up here so that I can show you what must happen after these things (i.e. judgement of the churches)” (4.1)
      8. The conqueror is coming (6:1): Seal # 1 is opened: “… here came a white horse! The one who rode it had a bow, and he was given a crown, and as a conqueror he rode out to conquer.”
      9. War/violence is coming (6:4) – Seal # 2 is opened: “…another horse, fiery red, came out, and the one who rode it was granted permission to take peace from the earth, so that people would butcher one another, and he was given a huge sword.”
      10. Economic collapse is coming (6:5-6) – Seal # 3 is opened: “… here came a black horse! The one who rode it had a balance scale in his hand…A quart of wheat will cost a day’s pay and three quarts of barley will cost a day’s pay. But do not damage the olive oil and the wine!”
      11. War/violence, famine, disease, and attacks by wild animals are coming (6:8) — Seal # 4: “…here came a pale green horse! The name of the one who rode it was Death, and Hades followed right behind. They were given authority over a fourth of the earth, to kill its population with the sword, famine, and disease, and by the wild animals of the earth.”
      12. Period of martyrdom: Christians are murdered because of their belief in Jesus and their testimony (6:9-11) – Seal # 5 : The souls of the martyrs, those who had been violently killed up until now because of the word of God and because of the testimony they had given cry out with a loud voice, “How long, Sovereign Master, holy and true, before you judge those who live on the earth and avenge our blood?” Each of them was given a long white robe and they were told to rest for a little longer, until the full number was reached of both their fellow servants and their brothers who were going to be killed just as they had been.
      13. Huge earthquake and some cosmic cataclysm (6:12-17) — Seal # 6: Huge earthquake takes place. The sun becomes as black as sackcloth made of hair, and the full moon becomes blood red. The stars in the sky fall to the earth like a fig tree dropping its unripe figs when shaken by a fierce wind. The sky is split apart like a scroll being rolled up, and every mountain and island is moved from its place. Then the kings of the earth, the very important people, the generals, the rich, the powerful, and everyone, slave and free, hides themselves in the caves and among the rocks of the mountains. They say to the mountains and to the rocks, “Fall on us and hide us from the face of the one who is seated on the throne and from the wrath of the Lamb, because the great day of their wrath has come, and who is able to withstand it?”                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 After the six seals, follow 1) absence of natural disasters for a time; 2) the sealing of the 144,000 from all the tribes of Israel, 3) the tribulation, and 4) the 144,000 are brought to eternal life 
      14. The wind everywhere on earth ceases for a time (7:1) : No wind blows on the earth, on the sea, or on any tree.
      15. There are no natural disasters for a period of time (7:2-3) until all of the 144,000 are marked.: “Do not damage the earth or the sea or the trees until we have put a seal on the foreheads of the servants of our God.”
      16. 144,000 from all the tribes of the people of Israel are marked with the seal (7:4-8). These are scattered around the world Jews as verse 7:9 indicates, “…here was an enormous crowd… made up of persons from every nation, tribe, people, and language…”                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 From the tribe of Judah, twelve thousand were sealed, from the tribe of Reuben, twelve thousand, from the tribe of Gad, twelve thousand, from the tribe of Asher, twelve thousand, from the tribe of Naphtali, twelve thousand, from the tribe of Manasseh, twelve thousand, from the tribe of Simeon, twelve thousand, from the tribe of Levi, twelve thousand, from the tribe of Issachar, twelve thousand, from the tribe of Zebulun, twelve thousand, from the tribe of Joseph, twelve thousand, from the tribe of Benjamin, twelve thousand were sealed.
      17. The tribulation (7:14): The statement that these are the ones who have come out of the great tribulation implies that the tribulation has happened first and then they were brought to eternal life.
      18. The 144,000 are brought to eternal life (7:9-14): The enormous crowd is standing before the throne and before the Lamb dressed in long white robes, and with palm branches in their hands. They are shouting out in a loud voice, “Salvation belongs to our God, who is seated on the throne, and to the Lamb!”… These are the ones who have come out of the great tribulation. They have washed their robes and made them white in the blood of the Lamb! For this reason they are before the throne of God, and they serve him day and night in his temple, and the one seated on the throne will shelter them. They will never go hungry or be thirsty again, and the sun will not beat down on them, nor any burning heat, because the Lamb in the middle of the throne will shepherd them and lead them to springs of living water, and God will wipe away every tear from their eyes”                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                So after the events associated with the first six seals followed by a period without wind and natural disasters, and then the sealing of the 144,000 Jews and the tribulation, comes the seventh seal.
      19. Silence in heaven (heaven here probably infers the sky) (8:1) – Seal # 7 is opened: “…when the Lamb opened the seventh seal there was silence in heaven for about half an hour.”
      20. After the silence, there are a big storm and an earthquake (8:5): “…crashes of thunder, roaring, flashes of lightning, and an earthquake.”                                                                                                                                                                                                                             Follow the seven “trumpet” judgments
      21. Hail and fire (8:7) – trumpet # 1: There is hail and fire mixed with blood. A third of the earth is burned up. A third of the trees are burned up. All the green grass is burned up.
      22. Something looking like a big mountain of fire falls into the sea (the global body of water is affected) (8:8) –Trumpet # 2: Something like a great mountain of burning fire is thrown into the sea. A third of the sea becomes blood. A third of the creatures living in the sea die. A third of the ships are completely destroyed.
      23. A big [planetary] body (star) falls from the sky on a third of the rivers and springs of water (8:10 – 11) Trumpet # 3: A huge star burning like a torch falls from the sky. It lands on a third of the rivers and on the springs of water. (The name of the star is Wormwood.) So a third of the waters become wormwood, and many people die from these waters because they are poisoned.
      24. The sky is affected (part of the sun, affecting part of the moon, and the stars) and so there is no light for a third of the day and a third of the night (8:12) – Trumpet # 4: A third of the sun is struck, and a third of the moon, and a third of the stars, so that a third of them are darkened. And there is no light for a third of the day and for a third of the night likewise.
      25. The “locusts” go out on battle and torture (9:1-6) – Trumpet # 5
        1. The sun and the air are darkened with smoke;
        2. “Locusts” come out of the smoke who damage only those people who do not have the seal of God on their forehead. The grass, green plants, and green trees are not damaged.
        3. The “locusts” do not kill those people without the seal but only to torture them for five months, and their torture is like that of a scorpion when it stings a person. In those days people will seek death, but will not be able to find it; they will long to die, but death will flee from them.                                                                                                            Note: The locusts are likely to be men soldiers. Please read 9:7-11 for description.                                                                                                                                                                                                           The first woe has passed (the fifth trumpet), but two woes are still coming after these things!
      26. There is a war/invasion, numerous army kills a third of humanity (9:14–21) – Trumpet # 6
        1. A third of humanity are killed by the soldiers;
        2. The number of soldiers on horseback was two hundred million;
        3. A third of humanity is killed by these three plagues: by the fire, the smoke, and the sulfur
        4. The rest of humanity, who is not killed by these plagues, nevertheless, does not repent of the works of their hands, so that they do not stop worshiping demons and idols made of
        5. gold, silver, bronze, stone, and wood—idols that cannot see or hear or walk about. Furthermore, they do not repent of their murders, of their magic spells, of their sexual immorality, or of their stealing.
        6. The identified region where this will be initiated is the region of the river Euphrates (9:14)
      27. Trumpet # 7 (10:1-7): At this point, we are not allowed to know what happens after the seventh trumpet. Something happens after it is blown, but we are not allowed to know. What we are told is that from this point on up to the seventh trumpet, there would be no more delay; and in the days, when the seventh angel is about to blow his trumpet, the mystery of God will be complete. To summarize, in the so far listed events 1 – 26, we see that God is delaying so people repent, but they will not. Right before 27 (trumpet #7), in 26 we see that after the sixth trumpet, the rest of humanity who was not killed by the three plagues, did not repent. And so trumpet # 7 is coming, but we are not told what will happen.
      28. Two prophets come on the scene (11:3-6)
        1. They prophesy for 1,260 days, dressed in sackcloth.
        2. They have supernatural power (can close up the sky so that it does not rain during the time they are prophesying, and have power to turn the waters to blood and to strike the earth with every kind of plague whenever they want.)
      29. When the prophets complete their testimony, so sometime after 1,260 days, the “beast” that comes up from the abyss will make war on them, conquer them, and kill them. (11:7-10)
        1. Their corpses will lie in the street of the great city that is symbolically called Sodom and Egypt, where their Lord was also crucified;
        2. For three and a half days, the whole earth sees them, because they will not permit them to be placed in a tomb;
        3. People are happy about their death and celebrate it because they had felt tormented by the prophets.
      30.  After three and a half days, the prophets are resurrected. (11:11-12)
        1. Tremendous fear will seize those who are watching them;
        2. Then they will hear a loud voice from heaven saying to them: “Come up here!” and the two prophets will ascend to heaven while their enemies are watching;
        3. Just then a major earthquake will strike and a tenth of the city will collapse; seven thousand people will get killed in the earthquake, and the rest will be terrified and give glory to the God of heaven.                                                                                                                                                                                                                           The second woe has come and gone; the third is coming quickly. (11:14) –the second woe are the events from 26-28. So afterwards… after the two prophets are gone, it is the time for the seventh trumpet.
      31. Judgement time (11:16-19) – trumpet # 7: Again, there are no specifics to what exactly will happen. But it is given to us the following to know:
        1. God ‘s wrath comes;
        2. It is the time for the dead to be judged;
        3. It is the time to give to God’s servants, the prophets, their reward, as well as to the saints and to those who revere your name, both small and great;
        4. It is the time to destroy those who destroy the earth;
      32. After 29 (the seventh trumpet events), the temple of God in heaven will open and the ark of his covenant will be visible within his temple (11:19)
      33. Then there are bad thunder storm, an earthquake, and a great hailstorm. (11:19)                                                                                               Now, the focus shifts from earth to Heaven (12:1-6). There are two sights presented in heaven, one of the pregnant woman who gives birth to a son, and the other of the dragon attacking. Then in 12:7-12, what is very clear is that a war breaks out in heaven. The war is in the heavenlies.
      34. War breaks out in heaven (12:7-12): The war is between Archangel Michael and his angels, and satan (symbolically represented as the dragon) and his angels. Archangel Michael wins, and satan is thrown down to earth with his angels. The believers will be able to overcome him (satan) but “woe to the earth and the sea because the devil has come down on you.”                                                                                                            At this point, the devil has only little time left. (12:12)The focus shifts again to the earth, “…now that the dragon realizes he had been thrown down to the earth.” (12:13)                                                                                   What follows is presented with great symbolism (remember, the dragon is the devil) (12:13-18)
      35. The dragon is after a “woman” who has given “birth” to a “son” (12:13)
        1. God rescues the woman by helping her escape and hide from the dragon in a specific “place” (12:14)
        2. She stays at that place for a “time, times, and half a time” and is taken care of (12:14)
        3. There is a big flood (12:15)
        4. There is a cataclysm on earth with the ground splitting and the water from the flood being “swallowed” in the opening (12:16)
        5. The devil (aka dragon) becomes enraged at the “woman” (12:17)
        6. The devil leaves the “woman” and “goes away” to make war on the rest of her children, the true Christians who are those “who keep God’s commands AND hold fast their testimony about Jesus.” (12:17)
        7. The dragon stands on the sand of the seashore (12:18)                                                                                                So, the dragon (devil) stands on the sand of the seashore (12:18) waiting for the “beast” to come out of the sea (13:1)
      36. Beast # 1 (31:1)
        1. The devil aka dragon gives the “beast” his power, a throne, and great authority (13:2)
        2. The “beast” has a healed “wound” from the past, which had appeared to be a fatal wound at that time, and now the whole world is filled with wonder and follows the “beast.” (13:3)
        3. People worship the “dragon” and the “beast” because the “dragon” has given power to the “beast.” (13:4)
        4. The beast is proud, blasphemes against God, and slanders the name of God, his dwelling place, and the beings living in heaven (13:5-6)
        5. The “beast” has 42 months to exercise its authority (13:5)
        6. Christians are persecuted – the “beast” goes on a war against Christians and conquers them (13:7); Christians go into captivity (slavery?) and/or are murdered (13:10)
        7. He has ruling authority over the nations (13:8)
        8. Everyone, whose name has not been written since the foundation of the world in the book of life belonging to the Lamb who was killed, worships the “beast.” (13:8)
      37. Beast # 2 (13:11)
        1. He looks like a lamb, but speaks like the devil (aka dragon) (13:11)
        2. He succeeds the first beast and rules on his behalf (13:12)
        3. The first beast is still alive when he succeeds him (13:14)
        4. He makes people worship the first beast (13:12)
        5. He performs momentous signs on behalf of the first beast, even making fire come down from the sky to earth in front of people (13:13)
        6. He deceives many with his powerful signs (13:14)
        7. He tells people to make an image of the first beast
        8. He makes an image of the first beast speak, and people who do not worship the image of the beast are to be killed (13:15)
        9. He also makes a ruling that his (the beast’s) name or number are put on everyone’s (children and old, every socioeconomic status) right hand or forehead as a mark through which trading will occur (13:6-7)
        10. No one can buy or sell things unless he has the “mark” (either the beast’s name or number). (13:7)                                                                                                 The second 144,000 (14:1)
      38. 144,000 are redeemed as firstfruits to God and to the Lamb,
        1. These 144,000 are ones who:
        • Have not defiled themselves with women; (14:4)
        • Are virgins; (14:4)
        • No lie is found on their lips; (14:5)
        • Are blameless; (14:5)
        • Follow Jesus precisely; (14:4)
        • THEY ARE FIRSTFRUITS FROM THE CHRISTIANS; FIRSTFRUITS TO GOD AND JESUS (14:4)                                                                                                  A period of “plagues”/ disasters: 3 angels with 3 messages (14:14)
      39. The first angel: appears as one like a son of man and is seated on a white cloud. He has a golden crown on his head and a sharp sickle in his hand… he swings his sickle over the earth, and the earth is reaped. (14:14-16)
      40. The second angel: like the first angel, he comes out of the temple in heaven, and he too has a sharp sickle (14:17). On the command of the third angel, he swings his sickle over the earth and gathers the clusters of grapes that are now ripe from the vineyard of the earth; they are tossed in into the great winepress of the wrath of God. (14:18-20)
      41. The third angel: he is in charge of the fire; comes from the altar, and commands the second angle to gather the grapes. (14:18-20)
      42. The winepress is stomped outside the city, and blood pours out of the winepress for a distance of almost 200 miles. (14:20)                                                                                                         The wrath of God is complete: the 7 Final plagues complete the wrath of God (16) — there are 3 plagues before the 7 final ones, so there are a total of 10 plagues that are happening after the first fruits from the saints, the 144,000 blameless virgins are redeemed.
      43. Plague # 1ugly, painful sores appear on people who worship the image of the best and have his mark (16.2)
      44. Plague # 2 – the seas are affected. Marine animals die off in large quantities, and the sea “turns into blood.” (16.3)
      45. Plague # 3rivers and springs of water are affected (16.4)
      46. Plague # 4 – the sun is affected as its heat increases tremendously to the point that people are scorched “with fire.” People blaspheme Jesus; they don’t repent. (16.8-9)
      47. Plague # 5the territory of the beast is affected: darkness covers his kingdom, people are in excruciating pain (in addition to the sores), but still do not repent, and blaspheme God. (16.10-11)
      48. Plague # 6 (16.12-16) – the river Euphrates dries up. The dried Euphrates becomes a road for the leaders (kings) of the East (of the Euphrates). After that: 1) There is a treaty or alliance so to speak formed between the dragon, the beast, and the false prophet, AND the other nations’ leaders (of the east) which is going to bring them together for the battle that will take place on the great day of God, the All-Powerful. (16.14); 2) they gather their armies to the place called Armageddon, And then comes the seventh plague:
      49. Plague # 7 (16.17 – 19) – the air/sky is affected: lightings, roaring, thunders. A tremendous earthquake, which is unparalleled in human history splits Jerusalem in three parts, cities collapse, islands move apart/away, mountains collapse. There is a horrendous hailstorm with gigantic hailstones; people continue to blaspheme God.                                                                                                              The condemnation and punishment of the great prostitute who sits on many waters, with whom the kings of the earth committed sexual immorality and the earth’s inhabitants got drunk with the wine of her immorality. (17.2-3)
      50. Condemnation and punishment of the great “prostitute” with the name Babylon the Great, the Mother of prostitutes and of the detestable things of the earth.” – this requires a mind that has wisdom:
        1. a “beast with seven heads and ten horns carries her;”
        2. the beast was, and is not, but us about to come up “from the abyss and go to destruction;” (17.8)
        3. The seven heads are seven mountains the woman sits on (17.9);
        4. The seven heads are also seven “kings”: five have fallen, one is, and the other has not yet come; (17.10)
        5. When the seventh leader comes on the scene, he will remain for only a brief time (17.10);
        6. The beast that was, and is not, is himself an eighth king and yet is one of the seven, and is going to destruction (17.11);
        7. The ten horns are ten kings who have not yet received a kingdom, but will receive ruling authority as kings with the beast for one hour (17.12);
        8. These kings have a single intent, and they will give their power and authority to the beast (17.13);
        9. They will make war with the Lamb, but the Lamb will conquer them (17.14);                                                                                                 The woman, Babylon is “seated over” aka rules over peoples, multitudes, nations, and languages. The beast and the ten nations’ leaders (i.e. horns) hate the woman and form alliance against “her” to destroy her.
      51. Babylon is destroyed and numerous disasters hit in a single day: disease, mourning, famine, and she is burned down with fire (18.8)
      52. The merchants of the earth weep and mourn for “her” because no one buys their cargo any longercargo such as gold, silver, precious stones, pearls, fine linen, purple cloth, silk, scarlet cloth, all sorts of things made of citron wood, all sorts of objects made of ivory, all sorts of things made of expensive wood, bronze, iron and marble, cinnamon, spice, incense, perfumed ointment, frankincense, wine, olive oil and costly flour, wheat, cattle and sheep, horses and four-wheeled carriages, slaves and human lives (18.12-13)
      53. The ships stay a long way off the cost (18.17)
      54. The devil (i.e. beast) and his followers, the kings of the earth and their armies assemble to go on a war against Jesus and his army (19)
      55. The beast and the false prophet are seized and thrown “in the lake of fire;” the others were killed; the rest were killed by the Word: “by the sword that extended from the mouth” of Jesus. (19.20-21)                                                                                                                  THEN:
      56. The devil is “arrested” for 1,000 years: the devil (i.e. dragon, the ancient serpent) is immobilized and thrown into the abyss so he can’t deceive the nations for 1,000 years. (after that he’ll be freed for a brief time) (20.1-3)                                                                                                       THEN: the first people of the dead to be resurrected (i.e. come to life)
      57. The first resurrection: the people who had been beheaded because of the testimony about Jesus and the Bible, who had not worshipped the beast or his image, and who had refused to receive his mark on their forehead or hand – these are the ones who will be resurrected first and reign with Christ for a thousand years. No one else of the dead resurrects/comes to life at this point but these above mentioned. The rest of the dead did not come to life until the thousand years were finished. (20.4-8)                                                                                                The 1,000 years end, and THEN satan is freed:
      58. Satan is released after 1,000 years and goes out to deceive the nations at the four corners of the earth, Gog and Magog, and to bring them together for battle. (20.7-9)
      59. They encircle the camp of the saints and the beloved city, BUT God’s eternal judgement falls on them at that moment:  And the devil who deceived them was thrown into the lake of fire and sulfur, where the beast and the false prophet are too, and they will be tormented there day and night forever and ever. (20.9-10)                                                                                                        THEN: OUR JUDGMENT DAY (yes, saints we have salvation, but that doesn’t mean we won’t be judged. )
      60. There is God on His throne; (20.11)
      61. All the dead are standing before His throne; (20.12)
      62. The books are opened; (20.12)
      63. The book of life is opened; (20.12)
      64. The dead are judged by what is written in the books, according to THEIR DEEDS (20.12)
      65. Each one is judged according to his deeds (20.13)
      66. Then Death and Hades are thrown in the lake of fire (death and hades, according to Judaic understanding are real and spiritual entities, and as such are judged) (20.14) – the lake of fire is the second death;
      67. Every person, including the resurrected dead whose name is not written in the book of life is thrown into the lake of fire and dies the “second” eternal death (20.15)Then… God is making all things new! A new heaven (as in the skies, the stars, and planets) and a new earth are created.
      68. The first heaven (i.e. skies), earth, and seas cease to exist (21.1)
      69. A new heaven (sky) and a new earth are created (21.1)
      70. The holy city—the new Jerusalem—descends out of heaven from God (21.2)
      71. The residence of God becomes among human beings (21.3)
      72. He will love among them, and they will be his people, and God himself will be with them. (21.3)
      73. God will wipe away every tear from every person’s eyes (21.4)
      74. Death will have died. It will not exist anymore (21.4;see 20.14)
      75. Mourning will not exist anymore (21.4)
      76. Crying will not exist anymore (21.4)
      77. Pain will not exist anymore (21.4)
      78. God is making all things new (21.5)
      79. It is done (21.5)
    1. The one who conquers will inherit these things, and I will be his God and he will be my son. But as for the cowards, unbelievers, detestable persons, murderers, the sexually immoral, and those who practice magic spells, idol worshipers, and all those who lie, their place will be in the lake that burns with fire and sulfur. That is the second death.” (21.7-8) “Now I saw no temple in the city, because the Lord God—the All-Powerful—and the Lamb are its temple. The city does not need the sun or the moon to shine on it, because the glory of God lights it up, and its lamp is the Lamb. The nations will walk by its light and the kings of the earth will bring their grandeur into it. Its gates will never be closed during the day (and there will be no night there). They will bring the grandeur and the wealth of the nations into it, but nothing ritually unclean will ever enter into it, nor anyone who does what is detestable or practices falsehood, but only those whose names are written in the Lamb’s book of life. (21.22-27)Then the angel showed me the river of the water of life—water as clear as crystal—pouring out from the throne of God and of the Lamb, flowing down the middle of the city’s main street. On each side of the river is the tree of life producing twelve kinds of fruit, yielding its fruit every month of the year. Its leaves are for the healing of the nations. And there will no longer be any curse, and the throne of God and the Lamb will be in the city. His servants will worship him, and they will see his face, and his name will be on their foreheads. Night will be no more, and they will not need the light of a lamp or the light of the sun, because the Lord God will shine on them, and they will reign forever and ever.” (22.1-5)

      A Final Reminder

      “Then the angel said to me, “These words are reliable and true. The Lord, the God of the spirits of the prophets, has sent his angel to show his servants what must happen soon.” (Look! I am coming soon! Blessed is the one who keeps the words of the prophecy expressed in this book.)

      I, John, am the one who heard and saw these things, and when I heard and saw them, I threw myself down to worship at the feet of the angel who was showing them to me. But he said to me, “Do not do this! I am a fellow servant with you and with your brothers the prophets, and with those who obey the words of this book. Worship God!” Then he said to me, “Do not seal up the words of the prophecy contained in this book, because the time is near. The evildoer must continue to do evil, and the one who is morally filthy must continue to be filthy. The one who is righteous must continue to act righteously, and the one who is holy must continue to be holy.”

      (Look! I am coming soon, and my reward is with me to pay each one according to what he has done! I am the Alpha and the Omega, the first and the last, the beginning and the end!)

      Blessed are those who wash their robes so they can have access to the tree of life and can enter into the city by the gates. Outside are the dogs and the sorcerers and the sexually immoral, and the murderers, and the idolaters and everyone who loves and practices falsehood!

      “I, Jesus, have sent my angel to testify to you about these things for the churches. I am the root and the descendant of David, the bright morning star!” And the Spirit and the bride say, “Come!” And let the one who hears say: “Come!” And let the one who is thirsty come; let the one who wants it take the water of life free of charge.

      I testify to everyone who hears the words of the prophecy contained in this book: If anyone adds to them, God will add to him the plagues described in this book. And if anyone takes away from the words of this book of prophecy, God will take away his share in the tree of life and in the holy city that are described in this book.

      The one who testifies to these things says, “Yes, I am coming soon!” Amen! Come, Lord Jesus! The grace of the Lord Jesus be with all. (22.6-21)



Kill the baby

Well, of course, there is no way to ban Planned Parenthood and stop funding them for performing abortion. But of course, the death of Cecil the lion brought to the public attention the important matter of big trophy hunting, which is becoming banned.

We humanize animals while we dehumanize the very human being. We name a lion Cecil and thus humanize IT. We call the unborn baby a “parasite,” and “fetal tissue” thus taking away his or her very humanity. So far, this is in line with my personal theory of Devolution of man. Don’t get me wrong. I love animals. My child spends a lot of time with animals. But I am alive enough to know that there is a big difference between an animal and a child. I am alive and awake to know that a baby is a baby outside and inside the womb. When I was pregnant, the doctors told me that I have a high chance of having a child with Down Syndrome but not to worry because I can abort IT and try to have another better baby. I give thanks to God that I was pregnant with HER, my child and gave birth to the love of my life. That “it” was She, very much full of life inside of my tummy, her inmost being intricately woven, her soul born at the moment of her conception inside my womb. I look at her every day, and give thanks to God.

Humanity, you are writing your own death sentence. Wake up and make straight your path. It is truly a life or death matter.

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In the 4th released video from the Center for Medical Progress, Dr. Savita Ginde, medical director and vice president of Planned Parenthood of the Rocky Mountains; Jess, a Planned Parenthood medical assistant; and two actors posing as fetal tissue buyers discuss a product of termination (i.e. product of abortion):

Jess: Head, arms, I don’t see any legs. Did you see the legs?

Ginde: I didn’t really look, but —

A buyer: Yeah, there it goes. Yup, you got all of them right there.

Jess: Another boy. Should I just put it . . .

Ginde: Yeah, just put it over here, I’ll wash it out. Yeah, so you guys staying the night or are you leaving?

Buyer: Leaving . . .
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Who cares for Cecil the lion? You. And me. Who Cares for the baby inside the womb? I do. Do you?


“For complex reasons still debated by historians, Englishmen, continental Europeans, and Americans indulged in the fiction that the black man was not a person and could therefore be treated as a thing. This fiction covered their hypocrisy. Actually they harked back to Aristotle’s definition of a slave as a living tool and were far removed from the biblical teaching.

Sadly, Americans indulged in the lie that the black man was not a person and could therefore be treated as a thing. It is remarkable that exactly the same argument was used in the Roe v. Wade decision of 1973 to legalize abortion. One hundred and fifty years ago the black man could be enslaved because he was not legally a person; in the last ten years twelve million unborn children have been killed because the Supreme Court decided that they are not persons.

Those who were murdered in the Jewish Holocaust were people just like all of us. More important to realize is that those who murdered them were also people just like all of us. We seem to be in danger of forgetting our seemingly unlimited capacities for evil, once boundaries to certain behavior are removed.”

— Dr. Francis Schaeffer, Whatever Happened to the Human Race


Be good. Leave the “great” to the ego.

Year 1905:
“A great silent collapse, an enormous unspoken disappointment, has in our time fallen on our …civilization. All previous ages have sweated and been crucified in an attempt to realize what is really the right life, what was really the good man… Every one of the modern phrases and ideals is a dodge in order to shrink the problem of what is good. We are fond of talking about “liberty;” that, as we talk of it is a dodge to avoid what is good. We are fond of talking about “progress;” that is a dodge to avoid what is good. We are fond of talking about “education;” that is a dodge to avoid what is good. The modern man says, “Let us leave all these arbitrary standards and embrace liberty. This is, logically rendered, “Let us not decide what is good, but let it be considered good not to decide it.” He says, “Away with your old moral formulae; I am for progress.” This, logically stated, means, “Let us not settle what is good; but let us settle whether we are getting more of it.” He says, “Neither in religion nor morality, my friend, lie the hopes of the race, but in education.” This, clearly expressed, means, “We cannot decide what is good, but let us give it to our children,” – brilliantly observed over a century ago G.K. Chesterton.

Seems as if he spoke not only for his present but prophesied for our present. If I may add, the modern man does not care to settle for what is good; he cares to settle for what is great. For our modern man, good is no good any more. It is not enough; great is what’s trendy now but… how can you be great if you don’t care to be what is good. How can you be great unless you turn away from evil and do what is good? How can you achieve greatness unless you achieve what is good – that what is true, what is noble, what is right, what is pure, what is lovely, what is admirable—excellent and praiseworthy— that what is good.

Be good. Leave the “great” to the ego.

The Trinity

The Trinity is one of the most beautiful and powerful aspects of the Christian faith. But many still feel puzzled about it. Well, “what is it?” I often hear. Well, the Trinity is the belief that God is ONE in Being and THREE in Persons. Where ‘being’ is that which makes you what you are, and ‘person’ is that which is who you are. For example, what kind of being am I? I am a human being just as you, but your cat is not as it is an animal being. Who am I in this being? I am the person of Natalia Love. Every single person that we know of is one being and one person. But God is not a human being; He is a God being – one of a kind, no other like Him! He exists outside the created 3-dimensional world. He is uncreated infinite powerful divine Being. God is One God Being and Three Persons, the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. And there is nothing like God!!!

Why I chose to home-school

My daughter started the school year in August as usual, at her school. But came October, and I found myself pressured to withdraw her. Given the circumstances, I couldn’t see her switching to another school in the middle of the school year. Our only safe choice was to home-school. So, why did I choose to home-school my daughter? The answer can be summed up in one sentence: I chose to home school my child because we got bullied, harassed and threatened because of our Christian faith by a gay family, and the school unwilling to address the matter did not do a thing to help us and assure our safety and well-being. So I pulled her out and I went part time at work. My mother quit her job and came to help me out. You see, my mom and the rest of my whole family, lives in Eastern Europe. So my mom quit her job and came all the way from Bulgaria to help her daughter out. Being a single mom does have its challenges, you know… and so I had to reduce my patient list and go on half the workload. I teach my girl half the day now, and the other half I see my patients.

Few paragraphs below, I have included the letter I sent to the middle school director. If you want to know the exact details of what exactly happened, please read it. It says it all there.

Why do I write this blog? Because I am sick and tired of hearing on popular media and people’s comments how bigoted and hateful Christians are towards gay people when the reality of my life (and many others) is of how hated, bullied, and discriminated against we, Christians are by gay (and other) individuals. I am writing this blog to show the other side of the story, which is never told by the popular media. I wonder, if my situation were reversed and it were me, a Christian parent harassing and threatening this gay parent and her daughter – what would’ve happened? Media coverage, articles written, probably my family asked to leave the school – just a few popular options; however, because we are Christians living in a culture soaked in anti-Christian sentiments, prejudices and hatred, nothing was done to help my family.

I am writing this blog because of deep sadness. I see the hypocrisy of modernity enfleshed every day. Professing ourselves to be wise we have become fools. Beating ourselves on the chest for our tolerance and compassion, we walk over everybody who disagrees with our personal life style or believes. We glory in the wrong and shun the right. And as a dear friend says, this is the new West I’m afraid. This is the new modern ethics I’m afraid…

As Christians, our convictions will always be challenged in a society with no biblical foundation. Are there Christians who are haters? Though personally I have not met a single one in my life of 35 years, I am sure there are. Just as there are gay people who are haters; and hindu, and muslim, and buddhist, and new age people, and atheists who are haters; and white, and black, and yellow people who are haters; and young and old people who are haters. But being a Christian does not make you a bigot just as being “white” does not make you a racist or a hater. Hate comes deep from the human heart, and it can be of any person, gay or straight, Christian or atheist. The fact that there are some unkind and bigoted Christians does not mean that all are and that Christianity is a religion of hate. If you are really honest with yourself and really want to know the truth, you shall not judge the reality of a religion or philosophy by its imperfect presentation of its adherent BUT by its creator. So if you are to judge Christians and Christianity, it is to be done so not by the behaviors of few Christians but ultimately by the behavior of its creator – Jesus Christ and only then by the total body of Christians. Just as if I am going to pronounce a judgment on buddhism or islam, it will not be solely based on my interactions with some buddhists or muslims but by looking at Gautama Buddha, the very creator of buddhism and to the prophet Mohammed, the very creator of islam, and then to their followers.

To this day, I wait on someone to point the finger at Jesus and call him a bigot and a hater. Surprisingly, I have not heard it even by avowed atheists and gay individuals.

There is a simple question to ask those with a caustic attack upon Christianity, “Is it alright for you to judge me but not alright for me to make judgments for me and my family? Why do we have to hate ­in the name of ‘right’? Can we not peaceably live with our disagreements? Or is tolerance only applicable if I agree with you and your lifestyle?”

Since I moved to the U.S., I have lived in Los Angeles. I got lost for some years but then God called me back to Himself and I returned to Jesus. When I came out as a Christian to friends (and some colleagues), all of them ran away from me and started using the ugliest, unkind and hateful language to speak and think of me. None of those friends, not one of them was Christian. If we have to use western labels, some were gay, others straight or bi-, some were Hindu, and others were Buddhist, third were new agers, yogi and yogini… all liberals, no conservatives. I can say that of the hundreds of people I had in my phone contacts, there is only one, a single one who stuck by me and remained a good friend till this day. It is my friend Matthew Hoh, and no, he is not a Christian. Matthew and I completely disagree on so many things – from my Christian faith to my position on gay marriage. We have quite few things we disagree on and beliefs that are quite opposing. And yet, Matthew and I respect, appreciate, and have charity for one another. For me, it is my faith in Jesus that teaches me to abhor what is evil and wrong as defined in the Bible, and still uphold every human being in respect and love because the Bible teaches me that man is sacred and has inherent dignity because he/she is created in the image and likeness of God. Mathew and I give each other freedom of belief (i.e. religion) and freedom of mind (i.e. speech) while still being loving friends. And you see… the problem, as I see it in these modern times, is that most people can only love others if they agree with them and approve of their behaviors and speech.

I’m afraid that at the end it all comes down to politics (as Matthew likes to say) AND as I like to say also to politic-al correctness. Yet in some weird way, I find this hope in Matt knowing the foundation of his childhood… knowing the love for the Lord he has had as a young man but then losing it all on the battlefield in the Middle East. He reminds me of myself some years ago, and deep in him, deep in his anger towards God I see love that has not burnt away and pray that God rekindles it drawing him back to Himself.

Here is the letter I sent to my daughter’s (former) school. It has all the details of what happened. I have deleted the name of the school and the other parties involved, and put some false initials out of respect for the privacy of the parties involved. Whether you ‘love’ or ‘hate’ this blog post, I pray that you may be blessed in this life and the life to come. Amen.

Dear Mrs. J.,

I am writing to you to inform you that my daughter … will not be continuing her education through … after October 31, 2014.

The incident that happened on October 6 during my daughter’s lunch with … and …, and the subsequent harassment by …, …’s mom, has created an environment for my child and me that is unsafe and unhealthy. I am especially disappointed that the school did not follow its own procedures to properly investigate the situation and assure the safety and well-being of my child.

I understand that the word ‘penis’ may not be a profanity when used in the context of teaching anatomy for example, but I think (and so does my child) that used in the context of the situation that occurred on that day, it was inappropriate speech. And that screaming it in the face of other students, though in a different language is offensive and inappropriate behavior. That my daughter was pulled into this and laughed at was inappropriate and disrespectful. Moreover, this is not the first time something like this has happened. My daughter personally reported to you another similar incident in September.

According to the school handbook (p. 63), “Minor discipline problems are typically handled by the classroom teacher and/or staff person. More serious or continued violation of school rules will be brought to the attention of the administration… Students are guided to take responsibility for their behavior or conduct.” On p.66, it is stated that “Major infractions include but are not limited to behaviors such as …disrespect towards a person, the use of profanity…” The campus rules (p. 65) state that “the school prohibits the use of inappropriate language,” and that consequences will be determined by the administration as well as “Actions occurring off campus but related to school may be dealt with as if they occurred at school. This includes the use of electronic communication of any kind.”

I am very disappointed that none of these rules were followed in my family’s situation. As I said, at least one similar incident has occurred in the past. I am not sure what action was taken to address it but the offense was repeated and further compounded with other inappropriate and threatening behavior, none of which was investigated or addressed by any form of discipline.

My child was put in a situation that was intimidating, disrespectful, sinful, and further lead to harassment and threats towards her and me by a parent. My daughter and I acted in a manner consistent with school guidelines. When I picked my daughter up from school on that day, she was in distress and when she informed me what has happened, after a moment of recouping, and thinking through in the car, we took the decision that she should not have lunch with the above mentioned students as to avoid being put again in such inappropriate, belittling and hurtful situations. We also returned to the school immediately with the intention to come to you with … and … so we could all discuss the situation. But … was not on campus, you were teaching a class, and so we approached only … (Ms. C. was present). In line with the handbook (p. 38) first bullet of “Complaint filing,” we approached … in order to inform her that … (my daughter) won’t be having lunch with her anymore because of what has happened during lunch as it was offensive to her and she does not want to be exposed to any such inappropriate and hurtful language, behavior or situations. We also told … that when she is ready to stop such behaviors, my daughter would be more than happy to resume lunches as she loves her. … seemed to understand as she said “Ok,” and nodded her head.

What followed was an offensive, hurtful, harassing and threatening phone call from her mother … filled with false accusations and threats towards my child and myself. In my conversation with you Mrs. J, I mentioned some of the offensive and false accusations thrown at us but they were not the reason for my unease and fear. I came to you for help to deal with the threats that were made against my child and me, threats to spread rumors and to falsely accuse my child among the gay families and the gay official in the school for spreading anti-gay sentiments and “gay hatred” in the school, including the threat “Do you know what will happen if I tell so-and-so about you spreading gay hatred through your daughter in the school?…” Words fail to express how I felt and how I still feel. Ever since October 6, I have been afraid to leave my car in the parking lot because of fear of finding it splattered with hateful words. As I mentioned to you also, I was up until midnight that night looking for different schools out of fear that my child will be terrorized and pressured to leave the school. When I met with you, I told you we don’t feel safe or respected anymore.

Given the seriousness of the event, I expected that my child and I might be asked to complete a written complaint and the claims investigated properly and thoroughly, involving all necessary parties (as stated in the school’s procedures). I am very disappointed that neither was done. When my daughter has come to your office to report herself what has happened, you have not heard her out or discussed with her personally anything. Instead, you told her that her mom has already told you about it all and that she should hurry so she wasn’t late for class. In her own words, “It was as if she (Mrs. J.) didn’t really want to hear the story (of what happened) from me.” The handbook also says on p. 38 that when a complaint is made against a non-employee or non-student such as a parent, “the school will take steps within its power to investigate and eliminate the problem…” It breaks my heart that none of this was done.

On Tuesday following the incident, … who had apparently witnessed her mother’s phone conversation with me, taunted my daughter telling her over and over that her mom “hates.”   The conduct of which we had complained, continued unabated.

On Tuesday (10/7), I wrote to you an email that was never answered. And though I stopped by your office on Wednesday morning to talk about this, our conversation was abruptly interrupted in the middle by …’s accident and all of us rushing out to help him. It was a stressful situation, we never got to finish our conversation, and so I hoped that my email will speak what I didn’t have the chance to say much. I waited to hear from you or Mrs. T., but you have never responded.

The school defines verbal harassment as “derogatory comments and jokes; threatening words spoken to another person either face-to-face or via electronic communications,” and bullying as “a real or perceived imbalance of power, with the more powerful child or group attacking those who are less powerful. Bullying may be… verbal (taunting, malicious teasing, threatening), or psychological (spreading rumors, manipulating social relationships, or promoting social exclusion, or intimidation).” My daughter and I were at the receiving end of it all, and the school didn’t do anything sufficient about it. I had been waiting for acknowledgement and reassurance for our safety and well-being since, but none has been received. It is only the 8th grader … who had approached my daughter and sincerely apologized to her for using inappropriate language and for putting her in such situation during the lunch time. I’ve read the school harassment policy (pp. 36-39), behavior expectations (p. 63), school rules and conflict resolutions (pp. 64-65), campus expectations and discipline policies (pp. 65-66), and I am extremely disappointed that the school itself did not follow its own procedures and did not keep the promises it made to us and to all families whose children attend …

As I have previously told you, we are traditional Christians. While I do not condone the “gay“ life style and I acknowledge it to be contrary to God’s law, I hold no animus in my heart against anyone who might choose to live in that fashion. I try to model that same Christian attitude for my daughter. I had no objection to my daughter spending time with … But when … and her friend’s conduct and speech became inappropriate and offensive, my daughter (and I ) are within our rights to say we will absent ourselves from such conduct and speech (especially since that conduct and speech was prohibited by the school’s own rules) until the person or persons engaged in such inappropriate behavior stop. To be accused of being a “hater” of gay people and threatened with false accusations that my daughter and I are “haters” is outrageous. It was incumbent on the school to ask the persons involved to cease and desist. Instead, our complaints were ignored.

As I wrote in my email to you Mrs. J. (please see copy attached), my daughter does not feel comfortable any more coming to you to share any issues because she sees no result from it, and because she is scared of how next she’ll be approached by other students (and I – by parents). I am concerned about my child and how all this has affected her emotionally and psychologically. She is afraid to even open her mouth when asked a question by a student, especially if approached by … Her heart and mind are disturbed, every school day is stressful now, and I am scared and feel unsafe coming to school knowing that the situation was not properly handled and fearful that we are not going to get attacked in one way or another, be it verbally, psychologically, or even physically. This is how bad this situation has become for us, and why I felt pressured to transition my child to a different school.



Here is the email I sent to Mrs. J the day after the incident (and that I mention in the letter above). It was never answered:

Dear Mrs. J,

I just put my daughter to bed and she opened up to me about today.

… has approached her in school telling her (with as if happy about it tone) “Our moms really hate each other.” My daughter has replied “No, and if your mother hates mine, my mom doesn’t hate yours. She loves her but people do sometimes get frustrated with things.” To which, … has said, “No, your mom hates mine. I heard my mom on the phone last night.”….and so on.

…. Mrs. J., I really want this to stop. Without exaggerating, to me it is starting to feel unsafe for my child. I want my child to stop being approached in such a way and being provoked. When she is, she is not going to be quiet, she will speak her mind with love but firmly but you see… the next thing to happen will be probably again to be said what hatred and anti-gay sentiments my child spreads because of me of course, and I probably will get another phone call with who knows what threats…

My daughter was concerned telling me all this because she didn’t want to hurt my feelings, and now she doesn’t even want to share this with you (asked me to just be between me and her) because she is scared of how next she’ll be approached if she does share it. And though my feelings are hurt but because I am concerned for … and her family too, I am mostly concerned about my child and this is starting to go on the border of emotional/mental abuse.

I am not going to contact …. as I don’t think this is the thing to do. I think I should let you know first and so you can let Mrs. T. know and decide how to be dealt with but please help me out as this feels is getting out of hands…

Thank you. And I look forward to hearing from you,

Letter to God

Note: This is personal. So please read it with respect, and if you are to comment please do so with even greater respect. If you can’t then please don’t read further.

My dear God,

I love you. And I can’t wait to come home to you. You are everything to me. I feel so lonely sometimes. I need you more and more with every passing day. The whole of humanity needs you, my God.

I cannot help but think…what if the whole world looked up to you, Jesus – my Lord and Savior. We people like complaining about and blaming you, and trashing you, and getting angry at you, God. Of course, because this is the easiest thing to do. It takes guts and humbleness for one to admit that the wickedness and aggression in this world is to blame on the wickedness and aggression that is in his or her own heart. But of course… we are weak creatures, my God. We are weak and deceived, and we want to weaken and deceive others, so they don’t see our personal weakness and self-deception. After all, it’s easier to blame you, God and to feel good about ourselves thinking that we are so good and great, and that you are the bad guy. I don’t know about evolution but the more I live and study history, I see the devolution of the human being with his devolving human heart and mind. We did not create this world or even ourselves… but it seems to me, we will most certainly help end it and ourselves.

O God, please forgive us. We don’t know what we do.

I close my eyes, and I see your eyes, Jesus. The most beautiful, clear, strong, faithful, loving, determined, true eyes – your eyes, Jesus. I close my eyes, and I feel you holding my hand, Jesus. You hold my hand in a way it has never been held before, and I know you will never let it go! I will never again let go off you, my Lord. You hold my hand and lead me to green pastures and to springs of living water. And though I may walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil for you are with me and you comfort me.

I cry as I write but you hold my hands and you lead me home where there are no more tears, no more pain, and death has ceased to exist.

Sometimes I am very weary of us people. Sometimes I think…how come you don’t get tired of us, God? It seems you created us as the sweetest of creatures but with the gift of our free will, left to our own devices we have become the wickedest and lowest of all creation. We have become your very prosecutor accusing you of the worst of crimes, which our own hands had committed in our free will and pursuit to be our own gods. We have turned against you. Father…don’t you get weary of us? If I were God… I’d probably get sick and tired from all this wickedness and ungratefulness, and will turn the breath of creation into one of destruction… I’ll probably say “enough of you people!”… so thank God that I’m not god. Thank you, God that you are God. You are perfect. Your will is perfect. And your justice is perfect.

Jesus, you are the perfect one. What would the world be if every single person looked up to you, my Jesus, held your hand, and let you lead them? What would the world be if every person followed in your footsteps, my Jesus?

What if people were not afraid of you, my Jesus? What if people submitted to your perfect rule, my prince of peace? What if people sought counsel in you, my wonderful counselor? What if every person returned home to you, my everlasting father? What if each person lived life honoring of you Christ Jesus, and got transformed from one degree to another to your perfect image, my Jesus?

…what would the world be like then?

I close my eyes and I see yours, Jesus. The most beautiful, clean, clear and powerful eyes… like two flames of fire that purify my soul.

I love you, Jesus my Lord and Savior. I want to go home to you, Father… to my father’s house where there are no more tears, no suffering, and no death.

I look forward to seeing you face to face, my God and if I could be but even just at your feet …but be right there in your throne room… that would be a dream come true for me.

Until I see you,



August 9, 2014

P.S. I can’t stop thinking of you, Jesus.

When I stand in your presence… the most beautiful and all-powerful, the all-knowing, holy…holy… holly all-good God. I fall on my knees just at the thought of it.

I can’t stop thinking of you, Jesus. My thoughts are saturated with you. My heart is set aflame just by the thought of you. My heart is a burning flame set ablaze by you and my love for you, my king of glory.

Christ Jesus, my glorious king, I pray more people in my generation will get to know you personally and for who you truly are. Burn my heart, Lord, purify me and show me how to love the way you love. Break my heart for what breaks yours. Open up my eyes for the things unseen. Use me for your kingdom. May your will be done, may your kingdom come in earth as it is in heaven.

Blessed is your name, Jesus. Blessed I am to be your poor slave, my Lord. Help us, God and have mercy when your day comes.

What is freedom?

True freedom is not about being free to do what you like or feel, which is nothing more than living a primal animalistic life. Freedom is about being free to distinguish between good and evil, and then choosing to do that only which is good.

But since we live in relativistic times with relative morality where one man’s “good” is another man’s evil, can we know for certain what truly good is? I believe so. But we can only understand what good is by knowing who is absolutely good.

When a certain ruler asked Jesus, “Good teacher, what must I do to inherit eternal life?” Jesus answered, “Why do you call me good? No one is good—except God alone.”

God is good, and God is love. Therefore, love is good. God is good, and God is forgiving. Therefore, forgiveness is good. God is good, and God is patient. Therefore, patience is good.

The same one who said, Why do you call me good? No one is good—except God alone,” also said:

“I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep. The hired hand, who is not a shepherd and does not own sheep, sees the wolf coming and abandons the sheep and runs away. So the wolf attacks the sheep and scatters them. Because he is a hired hand and is not concerned about the sheep, he runs away. I am the good shepherd…. I lay down my life… No one takes it away from me, but I lay it down of my own free will. I have the authority to lay it down, and I have the authority to take it back again.”

The Jewish leaders surrounded him and asked, “How long will you keep us in suspense? If you are the Messiah (the Christ), tell us plainly.” Jesus replied, “I told you and you do not believe… But you refuse to believe because you are not my sheep. My sheep listen to my voice, and I know them, and they follow me. I give them eternal life, and they will never perish; no one will snatch them from my hand… The Father and I are one.”

The Jewish leaders picked up rocks again to stone him to death. Jesus said to them, “I have shown you many good deeds from the Father. For which one of them are you going to stone me?” They replied, “We are not going to stone you for a good deed but for blasphemy, because you, a man, are claiming to be God.”

Jesus replied, “… do you say… ‘You are blaspheming,’ because I said, ‘I am the Son of God’? (As recorded in the gospel of John)